Thursday, April 30, 2009

Where did my toddler go?

My boy, he's growing up before my very eyes. Part of me can't stand it. I want my baby back! He was my one and only for 9 years. He and I are so close and I cherish that. My little boy isn't a baby anymore. He's not that chunky little blond haired toddler that used to make me laugh. Now he's a preteen, in junior high, and showing interest in girls. Time goes by so fast!!!

I watched him and his daddy seine fish last night and he is such a great helper. He's really stepped up and helped his daddy out since I can't do it now. I'm so glad that he enjoys helping his daddy and we don't have to force him. Seeing him grow and blossom is amazing. But....what happened to my toddler? In the back of my mind I can still see that little boy with blond hair and baby fat. It seems like only yesterday that I was laying beside him in bed every night until he fell asleep. Like only yesterday I was packing his lunch in his Power Rangers lunch box. I love the boy that he has become but I also miss the baby that he was. Life is short and it goes by so quickly.

He and I are still very close and I pray that we stay that way. I know that sometimes I am too hard on him and I have to watch what I say and do. I just want him to grow up to be a good person, a respecter of women, a man that others look up to. I want so many things for him but I know that he has to blossom and grow on his own. Gah, I love that kid! I just want the best for him!

Love your babies and cherish every moment you have with them because one day, you'll look around and they'll be all grown up. It happens that fast! I am so thankful for every moment that I have gotten to spend with my children. They are my greatest gift!!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

I'm pregnant dang it!

The kids and I had to make a quick run to the grocery store tonight after Bubba's baseball game. While we were there we ran into some old friends of ours. She commented that they had seen us at the ballpark. She said, "We recognized you half way across the ballpark. Mother said that you looked like you were having twins." Who the crap says that? How do I respond to that?

While we were at the ballpark tonight I ran into some friends that we hadn't seen in about a year. When he saw me he said, "So the rumor is true, you are having another baby. When are you due, you look like you are about to pop."

In the last week I have heard, "Are you going to make it to July?" "You're really poking out there aren't you?" "Are you going to have that baby today?" "My gosh you look miserable." "I think you've got twins in there." The list goes on. Only ONCE, just ONCE have I heard a nice comment. It was tonight at the ballpark. Another mom told me that I looked "cute and glowing." I almost cried when she said it. I am so used to people and their negative remarks that I didn't know how to react to someone saying something nice.

What is it with people? They don't think before they speak. Why is it so hard to say something nice to someone? I'm proud of my pregnant belly. God planted a miracle in my stomach and I want the world to see. I admit that I've gained a little more weight than I would have like to. I've still got more gaining to do. But....I am not ashamed of the way I look. I am carrying God's miracle! It would just be nice if more people recognized that instead of focusing on the negative. Why do people always focus on the negative?

Friday, April 24, 2009

Wow what a week and it isn't over yet!

The trip to the dentist, it wasn't what I was hoping it would be. Bubba had to have 4 teeth pulled. They were baby teeth that had permanent teeth trying to push them out. He also had 2 cavities. Ugh! Sister, she didn't want them looking at her teeth. She kept saying, no mommy, my teeth. We finally had to just hold her down. It didn't take but a minute and she was fine afterwards but it still wasn't fun. We ended up spending about 3 hours at the dentist office and have an appointment to go back in a month.

I have an appointment with the OBGYN today. It went well! I actually don't have to go back for 2 more weeks. I'm really glad because originally she said every week but is going to let me slide this time. When I go back in 2 weeks I will have an u/s to see how everything is looking. We are taking precautions and trying everything we can to keep Thumper in there as long as possible.

Tomorrow is girls day out. Sister and I, mil, sil, and sil's friend, will go for a girls day out. It should be fun!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Catching up

Gah, I've abandoned my poor blog lately. I've been super busy! I did the March for Babies walk and am so glad that I did. We got rained on and it was a little tough the second half of the walk but I'm happy that we did it. Bubba is proud of himself too! He has all kinds of plans for next year and we will get a bigger head start on the fundraising for sure.

Tomorrow the kids both have dentist appointments. There are no pediatric dentists in the area so I have to drive an hour to the closest one. I could take them to a regular dentist here but I would rather drive the extra miles and see that they have a good experience. I hate going to the dentist and I don't want them feeling that way.

Thursday I'll drive an hour to see my OBGYN. After this visit I have to start going on a weekly basis. She wants to take every precaution necessary to see to it that I don't have this baby early. I must admit, the closer I get to 33 wks. the more scared I get. I'm trying really hard not to stress over it because I know that stress isn't good for me nor the baby but it's hard not to think about. Having Sister the way I did was the scariest thing I have ever been through in my life and I don't want to go through that again, ever. Bake baby bake!

Friday, Bubba has another baseball game. He's been doing VERY well and I am so proud of him. His pitching has been excellent and he's crushing the ball. So far he's 6 for 8 at the plate. Couldn't ask for any better!

Hubs has plans for planting peas, corn, and tomatoes this weekend. The forecast is sunny and beautiful so I am kinda looking forward to it. I'm not sure how much planting I will do but I intend on spending some quality time outdoors with my family none the less.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Easter Reunion

Every year, the Saturday before Easter, we have a big family get together. My dad's side of the family all gathers at the park and cooks burgers and hot dogs. We have way too many sweets, the kids have a great time on the playground, the men talk about hunting and work while the women catch up on all of the happenings in our daily lives. We always have a great time!

This year, was the best! I saw faces this year that I haven't seen in years. Cousins that I used to be extremely close to but hadn't been in contact with since high school showed up yesterday. It was really nice seeing them and their families. It's amazing to see how we've all grown up. I can remember going to these big Easter get togethers and being the kiddo. Now, I have kiddo's of my own. It's sad to see the elders disappearing though. So many of them have gone on to the other side. The ones that are left aren't in the greatest of health. Kinda makes me sad and makes me feel old too. It really makes me realize just how short life really is. Our kids grow up too fast and if we aren't careful, we'll miss out on important things.

Seeing so many of my relatives this weekend made me stop and think, what do you have if you don't have family? Whether that family be big or small, we NEED them in our lives. How blessed we are to have family! There was not one person there yesterday that shared the same blood as I. Not one person that shared my genes. (Other than my children) But EVERYONE there was my family. Aunts, Uncles, cousins, they don't have to share your blood to be your family. My daddy, we don't share the same blood but he is my daddy in every since of the word. I've been a part of his family since I was 2 years old. Love, loyalty, compassion, that makes a family, not blood. There was not one person at that reunion yesterday that I couldn't call at any time of the day or night if I needed them. They would be there and I would be there for them. Family, we need to cherish our families and be thankful for what we've got. I couldn't imagine my life without them!!