The weight that is. I have really struggled with being depressed over the last couple of months. I feel guilty that I feel depressed. Does that even make sense? I was so sure that after I had the baby I would lose all of this weight and be back in my "normal" clothes in no time. Well, that hasn't happened. I still look pregnant and it is depressing. I have never had a weight issue in my life and I hate it. I got on the scales this weekend and I have gained 5 lbs since I left the hospital. What is up with that?
It is a vicious cycle. I get depressed because I am fat, I eat because I am depressed, then I get fatter. How do I get off of this roller coaster? I am really tired of pretending that I am okay!