Thursday, August 30, 2007

Broken heart

MIL had a biopsy done on a nodule that was found on her thyroid. (It is benign) So DH's sister came home for a few days. I love her to pieces. She was never able to have children so she takes extra special interest in the nephews and now Sister too. Toonsit, dh's sister, has wanted us to have a girl for so long and now that we finally have one, she is ecstatic.
She mails stuff to Bubba all the time and has now started mailing to Sister too. She gave her her first diamond a few weeks ago.

She had to go back home today so we went and ate dinner with them last night. She really broke my heart! She loves Sister so much already. She was holding her and talking to her and Sister was cooing and smiling back. It was so sweet! She didn't know that anyone was watching or listening. She was telling her how much she loved her and how she was going to buy her a pretty dress for Christmas, and then she had big tears in her eyes as she says, "Don't you forget me okay." It absolutely broke my heart. She would have made such a good mother and she is such a good person. I completely don't understand why some people aren't able to have children and others are killing theirs.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Church visitors

DH got up this morning and asked if we wanted to go visit a new church this morning. I am ashamed to admit it but Sister hadn't been to church yet. I scrounged through the closet until I finally found something that my big butt would fit into, got DH and the kids ready and off we went. When we got in the truck and headed into town we weren't sure exactly where we were going.

We ended up at a church on the loop. A fairly big church but not huge. As we pulled into the parking lot the early morning service was ending. We made it just in time for the second service. It was okay, but I am not sure we will go back. We really need to find a new church. The kiddos need to be in Sunday School. Blake goes to Sunday School at our hometown church pretty often but we are not really happy with the church here.

Once church was over we went out to eat. I had been craving pot roast from Cotton Patch. We had to wait about 20 minutes but it was well worth the wait. I heart Cotton Patch!

Not much happening around here today, just taking it easy. Bubba starts school tomorrow so we are trying to get ready for that. :( I guess Sister and I will have to start a new schedule this week. I am feeling a little anxious. Bubba is kind of ready though. He really likes both of his teachers and he is starting out with a good attitude so I am hoping and praying he has a good year.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Sneak A Peak

Last night was Sneak A Peak at Bubba's school. We had to go meet the teacher's and visit his new classroom and all of that jazz. I must say I feel a bit better about school now than I did at the end of the school year last year. Both of his teachers seem very nice and very concerned about the children. I know them both on an acquaintance type basis, if that makes sense.

I am really hoping for a good year this year and Bubba is too. We had a long talk and we are both going to try and put last school year behind us and start with a clean slate.

He is in a different home room than his best friend and I think that could ultimately end up being a good thing. Bubba and his BFF are both a year ahead of what they are supposed to be and still happen to be the top of the class, so they often end up being compared to one another and that never has a good outcome. I don't want my child compared to ANYONE, he is an individual and I want him treated as such.

I am going to miss him so bad next week. I don't know what I am going to do without him. He is my rock! I know Sister will miss him too because he holds her and plays with her so much. I am so grateful that they have had this time to bond.

My baby boy is now a 5th grader! He is growing up and I can't stand it. If I could, I would have him stay a little boy forever. Gah, why does being a mom have to hurt so bad?

Thursday, August 23, 2007

3 Months Old

Sister is 3 months old today! Wow, it seems like it was just yesterday, and then again, in a way, it seems like it has been forever since she was in my tummy. It is so amazing to see how much she has grown and how wonderful she is doing. The morning they wheeled me into the OR, I didn't know if she was even going to make it, now look at her. She is a true blessing and I thank God everyday for her.
We went and had her picture made and she wasn't exactly cooperative. She wasn't too fussy but I didn't get the exact results that I wanted. They are cute, just not great! Wal-Mart has really good deals so maybe I will take my chance in a few days and have her pics done again to see if we can at least get a smile out of her.

Bubba's PSP broke a few days ago so we took it by the Game Stop to see if they could fix it, tell us what was wrong, or whatever. They didn't know what was wrong with it and offered to buy it for $60, hhmmmm. Santa Clause paid $200 for it. I refused their offer, got home and called Sony to see what could be done. They offered NOTHING for it and offered to sell us a USED one for $99. Damn, the thing is only 8 months old and it was $200, should it last a little longer than that? Of course, they told me if I had kept my receipt they would replace it for FREE! Don't they know that Santa Clause doesn't keep receipts? Sheesh! So, I am not sure what we are going to do but I want to replace it for him because he has been soooooo much help to me and Sister and he really deserves it.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Ball practice anyone?

Sister has had a rough couple of days. Literally no napping at all on Monday and the same thing yesterday, well at least until we got to baseball practice. I am not sure what has been going on with her the last couple of days but it has been tough on both of us. Teething, gas, I don't know but I wish we could fix it soon.
Anyway, we got in the truck and started on our way to baseball practice about 5:30 yesterday and she fell asleep in the carseat. Once we got there, I got her out and thought for sure that she would wake up. Nope, she slept! That sweet baby slept the entire practice, with all of the boys running and yelling and the whole nine yards. She even slept for an hour after we left and went to Wally World. She got some much needed rest.

It looks like we are going to have a really good team. Bubba is really excited! He has wanted to be on a good select team for awhile and now it is finally happening. As of right now he will be the #2 pitcher and the starting 1st baseman. He got his wish for the team name too. They were originally going to be called the Sidewinders, but after Bubba nagged the coach long enough he let Bubba pick the name and he came up with Nac Nitro. I really tried to help him come up with another name but my brain has been fried for quite awhile. Their colors will be maroon and gray. Not exactly my choice but I have to remember that I am not coaching this time.

It is really hard for me not being able to coach. I absolutely love it and it is so hard sitting back and watching and not being involved. I do however plan on coaching basketball and I will coach baseball again once spring rolls around. Sister will have to get used to being lugged around in the moby, lol.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Really bad day!

My poor sweet baby girl has had an awful day! I pray that tomorrow is a better day!

Jesus Loves Me!

Jesus Loves Me, God is so Good, This Little Light of Mine, those are just a few of the songs that I sing to Sister. While we were sitting on the porch enjoying the sunlight and cool breeze, I was singing Jesus Loves Me to Sister and she sang back. It was so sweet! She was cooing and cooing while I was singing and it was the most awesome thing ever. I have got to get the battery charged up on the camcorder so I can show that to her in 10 years.

It is amazing the new things she does everyday. Because she was 7 wks early I was really worried that she would be set back a little. Maybe not do things quite as quickly as a full term baby would. So far, thank God, I have been wrong. Other than her being a little small for her age, she is right on track with everything she is supposed to be doing. And the way this child is eating, she will be caught up to her weight class in a few months.

I don't know what I did to deserve her but I sure thank God for her everyday!

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Shopping Trip

It was tax free weekend here this weekend and time to buy school clothes. Bubba wanted to go to Academy so off we went. He now has Under Armour or Nike dry-fit in just about every color. He is a happy happy boy! I gave him $175 to buy what he wanted for school clothes and he came out a champ. It was so awesome to let him pick out what he wanted and see the smile on his face. He came out with 5 shirts, 4 pairs of shorts, a pair of cleats, and a pair of nike sneakers. The boy is set for school!

We then headed to Target to get school supplies. Baby girl was not too happy with that. I managed to keep her quiet just long enough to get Bubba's supplies. 5 packages of pens? Are you kidding me? He is in the 5th grade, why on earth does he need 5 packages of pens? And 5 packages of pencils? Whatever! Oh, and grading pens? Isn't that what the teacher is for? Seriously, some of these things made no sense to me. We had already purchased a backpack and he is using the same lunch box he had last year so with us just getting the bare minimum that was on his list, it cost me $60. What do people do that don't have that to spend on school supplies? It is nuts!

Just as we got out the door of Target, baby girl let it be known that she was NOT happy! We got everything loaded in the truck and headed to Reesy's house. By the time we got there baby girl was screaming at the top of her lungs, she was HUNGRY, lol. Reesy was so glad to see her and bragged and bragged on her. We stayed about 2 hours and let Reesy spend a little time with Sister. Bubba and Pop talked baseball as usual.

We got home around 9-ish. Daddy helped us unload and Bubba had to show Daddy all of the cool stuff he got. Mommy was wore out and Sister was ready to get out of the carseat. Daddy took Sister for a few minutes and Mommy just sat out on the porch for a little while and relaxed. We had a fun day and Bubba was happy but it was really tiring for me. I am glad we are done!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

What next?

It all started the weekend of the Dallas Boat Show. We lost several hundred lbs. of fish the first weekend, the second weekend didn't go so well. All in all we lost about $2000 those two weeks. Then the well pump went out and we were out that cost. Now the clutch on the tractor is out and THAT is our lively hood.

When you are down on your luck and not so great things keep happening, some people will say that you aren't living right. I believe just the opposite. The devil has no need to attack those that already strayed from God. It is when you are living right that the devil will attack. When God is top priority in your life the devil gets scared.

We serve a loving God and I know that He will help us make it through.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Beautiful sound

Her daddy has a way with her that I can't explain. He is madly in-love with her and she truly adores him. He walked in as I was changing her diaper today. I had her laying on our bed and I was sitting cross legged as I talked to her. Her daddy spoke to her and she looked him in the eye and let out the sweetest out loud laugh that your ears have ever heard. The more he talked, the more she laughed. It was BEAUTIFUL!

I must admit, I was a little jealous. I am with her 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and she had never done that before. She is growing so much and so quickly. I see something new in her every day.
I don't know why God gave her to us or what we did to deserve her, but I am sure glad that he did.

It is really hard for me, not having my mom here, but deep down inside, I believe, wherever she is, she can see us. I miss her so much and it breaks my heart that my kids are missing out on knowing her. She would have been a great Nanny and they would have adored her. She was my best friend and even though my kids will never know her, they will know all about her.

Why do I even bother?

I try, I mean really try to be a good in-law, but sometimes they make it really tough. It seems like every time I am around them they are questioning my parenting skills. I am really sick of it and it is getting harder and harder to be nice.

"You aren't taking her out in this heat are you? She doesn't want to go, let us keep her. You are going to wish you hadn't started that, you will never get her out of your bed. " The list goes on and on. Why can't they just enjoy her and stfu?

And the comparing! AGgrrrrrrr, that ticks me off. They have a grandson that is 6 wks younger than Sister and they are constantly telling me what he is doing. He likes this, he likes that, he does this, he does that. Does she do this, does she do that? Enough already! And if they tell me one more time that she is spoiled, I may just rip someone's head off!!!

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Mr. Mom

Sitting around being the boring people that we are, DH suggested we cook something on the grill. I agreed that it would be a good idea and started making a grocery store list. He, being the sweetheart that he can sometimes be, volunteered to keep baby girl while I went to the store.

I had just fed her and changed her diaper, the grocery store was only 25 miles away, so I agreed. I needed a little break anyway. I asked Bubba to go with me since we never get to spend time alone anymore. We got what we needed at the grocery store and as we headed down the road, Bubba says, "Mom, want ice cream? I'll buy." Is that not the sweetest 9 yr old in the world?

I couldn't pass that up so we went thru the drive thru at Dairy Queen and we each got a dipped cone. Of course, I didn't let him buy, I took care of that. It wasn't much, we didn't do anything special, but I truly enjoyed spending time with my boy. It makes me sad to see him growing up so fast. I miss him being a toddler and being so totally dependent on me. He is growing into such a wonderful young boy and while I am happy he is such a good kid, I am sad that he is no longer a baby boy anymore.

As we pulled up in the driveway, DH and Sister, stood there on the porch waiting for us. It was the cutest thing I had ever seen. He is truly in love with her and I find it so heart warming. He had given her a sponge bath and changed her clothes. He had even put lotion on her to make her smell good. He is a really good daddy and we are so lucky to have him in our lives. Sometimes I want to hang him upside down but for the most part, he is pretty ok.

Ribs and chicken quarters got put on the grill last night, today it will be brisket. He is no master chef but he can hold his own. We won't go hungry, that is for sure. I think I may just keep him!

Saturday, August 11, 2007

In the Beginning

Well, I finally did it. I joined the blog world. I worry that this may become another addiction. I talk a lot so I know that I can write a lot. And being that I am somewhat stuck in the house with an infant, I am sure I can find all kinds of boring stuff to write about.

I guess I could start with, dang it is HOT! I have been stuck in this house for months now. Not able to get outside and play ball with my boy. DH came home early today so I thought that I would take advantage and go outside and play catch with Bubba. We lasted about 15 minutes. It is so scorching hot and so humid you can't breath. We had to come in. My out of shape butt couldn't handle the heat any longer.

It wasn't until after I had baby girl that I realized how much my life would change. I knew things were going to be different and I knew what having a baby was all about but what I didn't know was just how much. I love her to pieces and I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world, but oh how I miss my freedom. There is just so much that I can't do anymore. I know it sounds like I am complaining, but I'm really not. I could do more, if I could leave her with someone else. I am just not ready for that yet. I left her with her daddy once for 2 hours while I went to Wal-Mart and it drove me nuts.

I miss getting out in the yard and playing ball with Bubba. We haven't had much mom and son time since Sister got here. Today, while we were outside playing catch, I realized how he must miss it too. Before baby girl got here, we used to play catch almost everyday. Even when I was pregnant, I would get outside and play with him. He has been so good about it though. He has been the best big brother a girl could ever ask for. He helps me with her so much. He prayed so long for a baby and now that he finally had his prayer answered he is on cloud nine. Not once has he complained. He has helped me with dishes, laundry, even holding and caring for his sister while I take care of household things. I love that boy so much!

I have got to find time in the very near future to do something special with him, just he and I. He had my undivided attention for almost 9 years and he has taken a back burner for the last 2 and a half months. I think I am going to go tell him how special he is and how proud I am of him for not complaining and for helping me so much. My boy is truly an awesome kid!